Trying once again to get back on the wagon.  I’m still working out regularly, but have managed to get totally off-track and out of control with the eating again.  I don’t know if I’ll get this game of life figured out!  I sabotage myself every time I get ahead.  I know it’s a mental game that I’ve got to get a hold of.  How can it be so hard to just say no to all the bad things I put in my mouth.  I do it time and time again, knowing the damage I’m doing.  I can’t seem to stay consistent on anything.  Just like saying I was going to write something on here every day.  I do it a couple of times and then forget.  Well, I’m going to try again!  Today, after having a sleepless night and finally giving up at 1:30, I got up and surfed the internet for a while, had a protein bar and waited for it to be time to go to Delta Life.  I had some pre-workout about 5:45 and went to workout for 6:15.  I love going to Delta Life. I usually feel really good about my workouts.   It was very hot this morning and we had to do the 1/3 mile for the first time in a very long time.  My time was 3:07, which is a lot slower than it was the last time we ran it.   I was still ahead of all but one other member.  We had a benchmark workout Friday and it took me a lot longer to complete it than the last time as well.  This extra weight and the heat are making a big difference in my performance.  Any way, maybe I’ll get it together.  In other news, I bought into a new line of makeup that I’m absolutely loving…..Senegence…..I have the lipsense and the foundation, both are fantastic so far.  Maybe I can do something and actually sell some!  More on that later.

I think I might’ve finally gotten a grip on things.  Last night and today have gone really well.  I’ve eaten clean and had a great workout this morning.  I had one stupid accident letting the weight bar fall on my good leg, but I worked through it.  I have a huge bruise now but I’m not gonna let it give me an excuse to fall off the wagon again.  I can’t believe that I’ve let myself gain 20 pounds in the last 6 months.  I feel like a failure.  Hopefully I will be able to keep the momentum going and lose the 20 I gained plus the last 15-20 that I had to go before.  Why does this have to be so hard?  Why couldn’t I have the metabolism that so many others have?  It’s so frustrating.  But I guess those are the cards I was dealt and I better figure out a way to deal with it.  I have so much to be thankful for that I shouldn’t complain at all.  I’m way healthier than many others my age.  My husband loves me no matter my size.  I have a very loving son and family.  I have Bevo and Boomer.  I have a Savior that shows me mercy every single day.  Okay, life is great!  Pity party over.

I have never been a goal setter, so this is not easy.  I will attempt to write these goals every day to make them become habits. “Act as though I am, and I will be.”

Weekly Goals:

1. Eat according to my meal plan

2.  Exercise regularly according to my fitness plan

3.  Eat only 1 cheat MEAL per week

3 Month Goals:

1.  I will weigh 150 pounds

2.  My body fat will be 20% or less.

3.  I will easily fit into a size 8.

1 Year Goals:

I will be so happy and thankful that I will have a toned stomach and toned arms.  I will look good in a bikini.  I will have a body fat of 15-18% and weigh no more than 145 pounds.  I will help others to choose healthier habits by leading through example and being a reliable source of health and nutrition information.  I am developing consistent exercise and eating habits that will be so ingrained into my lifestyle that they stay with me for the rest of my life.

We’re home from our mission trip to Casa Angelina in Guatemala.  What an unforgettable trip it was.  We started the week off with a free day and we visited the black sand beach.  It was very different from our beaches around here.  So clean and beautiful.  The waves were also very strong.  We had a great time.  The scenery in Guatemala is amazing.  There are mountains and flowers every where you look.  The weather was spectacular.  Monday we went to Casa Angelina and were greeted by some very awesome kids who are so full of love it just bursts from them.  After playing with the kids for a little while we were surprised with our assignment of combing lice out of the kids hair.  Not what we were expecting, but we did it any way. They fed us amazing lunches every day we were there.  They took us to visit the widow’s home that the team built last year and the family was so happy for the visit and the supplies that were brought to them.  Tuesday we continued with the lice duty and then began digging a trench and building compost bins. The hostel we stayed at cooked us breakfast and dinner each day that was delicious.  We worked on the trench the rest of the week and also cleaning the aquaponics house and planting flowers on a very steep hill to help stop erosion.  We bought shoes and groceries for the widow’s family and brought the items to them on Friday.  The family was so very grateful for everything that was done for them.  The conditions they live in are unimaginable and these people are so full of genuine love, it is unbelievable.  We take so many things for granted in our every day lives and this trip has really humbled me.  God has blessed me in so many ways that I take advantage of.  I had the time of my life serving with the TCPT Ripple Effect Missions Team.  Each and every one of the members are so special and have hearts of gold.  I can’t wait to serve with them again.

10 days till we leave for our mission trip to Guatemala. I’m getting both excited and apprehensive. Praying that we have a safe and productive trip.

Went to a Sexual Assault Family Violence conference in Irving with Sarah Murphy last week and had a good time. Tarah was there, also. Tuesday was Sarah’s birthday and we celebrated big time. I haven’t been that drunk in many years, lol. I had a blast. Some guy in the bar thought I was the hottest thing ever and bought all of my drinks! He wanted to take me to Italy, lol. We stayed at the Omni Mandalay Hotel and it was exquisite. It was on a lake and was similar to the river walk in San Antonio without all the businesses. It was really nice to get away for a few days. The conference was really good, too.

I’ve been doing You Time at the YMCA and going to aqua aerobics classes. I’m really enjoying the challenge of the workouts again. I haven’t been able to lose any more weight which is discouraging, but I’ll keep right on working out. My body is getting stronger and stronger and that’s a great feeling.

I’m a week late, but anyway, I made it through my first month of Challenge. It was, to say the least, challenging at times. I thoroughly enjoyed it though. It’s such a good feeling to push myself further and further and realize that I am capable of accomplishing things I would never have imagined being able to do. When I began Ripple Effect I couldn’t do 1 military style push-up. At the beginning of Challenge I was able to do 24. At the end of the month I was able to do 39! That’s a little deceiving because I wasn’t able to go down as far as I should, but I still wasn’t doing them on my knees. We do quite a bit of running in Challenge, which I’m beginning to love again. Hopefully I can keep it going without injury, that’s my biggest fear.
This week was the first week of my second month of Challenge. We did our parameters on Tuesday. I was able to do, I think, 28 full military push-ups, and I ran my mile in under 10 minutes. I was third out of 9 people, beat only by the 2 guys and I’m by many years older than all of them, lol. That’s a great feeling, one I can’t even describe.
Today our workout was extremely difficult and I loved it. My body is feeling it now. I think I’ll go soak in some epsom salts!
Hope everyone has a wonderful day! Do something kind for someone 🙂

This morning was the last morning of week three for The Ripple Challenge. We had a good workout. It was challenging, to say the least, but I loved it. Yesterday it was even more challenging for me. For some reason me and full sit-ups don’t get along, and we had to do a LOT of power sit-ups. I don’t know if my body is made strange or my form is off when I’m doing them, but it leaves the top of my butt completely chafed and raw. Now I can’t get comfortable sitting, and barely laying down. The things I’m willing to put up with to stay fit! Went to Academy and got some body glide that is supposed to stop chafing and will give that a try. Next week is the last week for June Challenge and we will be testing our parameters again. Hoping to see some improvement from the beginning of the month.

Today began at 4am with feelings of anticipation. I really felt like rolling over and going back to sleep, but got up any way. As I was washing my face and getting dressed I couldn’t help but wonder if I should’ve just signed up for Ripple Bravo instead of Challenge. Challenge is so intimidating. I worry that I won’t be able to keep up or be as fast as everyone else. I make it to the gym and await our assignment. Others express the same feelings I was having this morning so I’m not feeling so bad. We are told we are going outside. This morning was cold, especially for May. We begin with a warmup and are told we will be taking it a little easy today because tomorrow we will be testing our parameters. We are going to do the exercises that will be measured tomorrow. We begin with a run through the neighborhood. I manage to keep up and still be able to breathe and feel good. Then we go into a series of 1 minute exercise, 30 second exercise and 30 second rest then the next exercise. We did jumping jacks, jogging; sit-ups, 6 inch hold; push-ups, planks; and leg raises, 6 inch hold; and then repeat everything. (I think that was all, but not positive) Then we went for a short jog in the parking lot and cooled down. I survived! I loved the workout and my doubts about Challenge dissolved. I think I will be able to do it!

It’s been a few weeks since I’ve posted anything. Had a great girls weekend on the 20th with my sisters and step-mom to celebrate my 50th birthday. We visited, ate too much, played, shopped and went to church together to finish the weekend off. Lots of laughing and sharing. It was a perfect celebration. They surprised me with a money tree to help me with my mission trip to Guatemala in August. They are such a blessing in my life.

Ryan closed on his house and got moved in. I’m so proud of him. The house is great and perfect for him. So excited for him. Much to my surprise he planted some tomatoes and a sago palm tree. Guess he was just kidding when he said he was gonna pull up all the rose bushes because they’d just be in the way for mowing, lol. Looking forward to his housewarming party next Friday night.

The house sure is quiet without Puffy. Miss him like crazy 🙁

I signed up for Ripple Challenge for May. It starts Monday and I’m nervous. Sure hope I can keep up. I’ve been going to classes at the gym all week during the break so I won’t be so sore when we get started back up. This morning I’ll be going to the Cardio Strength Interval class. Been up all night at work after not sleeping much yesterday, so it’s gonna be a struggle making it thru class, but don’t wanna miss it.